Million Word Dues

I have to make more time to write and think faster. There that is out of the way, I will explain. NaNoWriMo  is starting soon and I don't know what to write about, but I do want to do it. I had an idea that I was working on and I was certain that was going to be the focus of my first Nano, but the closer it gets, the less I am certain if that is what I want to do. I have to do something. I suppose. I will never pay my dues if I don't start with the payments that I can afford. I have read about many authors whose first books were self-admittedly horrible. I suppose that is the way that it is supposed to be, but I suffer from a delusion that leads me to believe that if I learn enough, I don't have to fall in to that trap. Yes I have to learn, but if I can incorporate these things in to my work early on, maybe my first efforts will suck less. One can hope. I suppose this difference is that I know that I am deluding myself. It will suck, and I dread it. I am reminded of